T^T

I did not know what I've just did yesterday..
It seems so stupid, being a stupid student with low grades is ma thing, but to be a stupid gurl who can not handle her problems is waay not me!! I'm a STRONG gurl! A really STRONG gurl, but not yesterday..
For the first time I did not joined ma gurlfriends celebrating our 'mummy's' birthday at the center of our hostel! And it sucks because they sounds happy and celebrate it like crazy! Sorry teacher, next time we will celebrate it together okay?=.='

What that I did was laying on ma bed alone with the lights be off because they all wanted the hostel to be dark so it will be easier to prank our warden for her birthday celebration.. I am a person who really scared of being alone especially in dark but things that disturb me yesterday was all that I'm more concerned about... Me, maself was a bit shocked that I could stay in ma room alone while the others were celebrating 'mummy's' birthday. I was weird yesterday.

Few peoples talked to me yesterday. Few peoples encouraged me to be STRONG and forget about it!!! Totally forget about it!!

I'm learning too. It was ma first and I promise you guys that it will be the last!!!

Thanks to those who helped, especially Mr. Stalker, I knew I am a childish stupid teenage gurl who had been a burden to all of you, but I promise, if I ever repeat it again, please slap me!!! To the person who had make me wailing cries badly yesterday, you should be proud because you are the first person who make me cry because of you!! And it was stupid! If you felt that you win, no you don't!! I have Allah S.W.T and He always be by ma side!!! For you, I hope that you will realize that doing such things towards me were the last thing that you should ever done before you die because they were all BIG MISTAKES!!!!!!!!!!! And I hope you regret it!! Things will never be the same between us! Do remember that! You had just messed with the wrong gurl! Like I have told you before, I never understand you, jerk!! Please la, back off! Just go! Tho that I think that I always need you by my side, but not anymore! From now on, just go! If you felt that we should be best friend, I don't think so, because friends don't hurt each other! We hurt each other countless time, and I couldn't take it anymore! Please do understand me..

Cooler than me?? Not anymore..

I wont forget this moment ever in ma life!! The moment I be stupid and having a non stop crying moment till sobbing! Mr. Stalker was right the first time when he said that "Buat ape nak suka orang yang tak suka dekat kita kan?" BETUL!!! And thanks for spending your credit to call me and make me laughed. I really appreciate it! I listened to your advised for sure. InsyaAllah, No worries. We're in a team remember? Benci laki jahat! haha

Please make things right back like we usually did, please improve this situation back to normal again because I don't want to be the one who seek for the apologize anymore like I did before, not anymore! I'm a different gurl now fyi.

I'M THE NEW AZWA MALIZA!!!!!!!

another day, another story, another me,

by a teenage gurl who is sick with all this stuff,

wawa cyrus

muahmuah xoxo

ececeh, Mr. Stalker aku sorang nie..

Tipu bukan kemaen. Told me before that you don't have any gurlfriend, but there you go.. Ingat kau sorang je suka stalk, I'm a stalker too la bro..
So, congratulations to me because finally able to find your blog. Bace punye bace, kantoi ade gurlfriend!
Piirah.. Nak tipu, Azwa Maliza konon.. Haha.. So, happyla seeing ma old friend ni change waaaay than I've ever expected! And I dah lama ade fb okay, sorry siket. Last time, me using gedik gedik name so memangla tak jumpa. Haha.. Ape la..

So, too ma new long lost friend, happy living your life to the fulest in SEMASHUR and be the best la in your SPM, kan headboy kan? Tak kan tak nak jadi best student?! So good luck and jangan nak duk tipu kawe kate takde gurlfriend! Jelas sampai tak payah nak suluh lampu dah! bahahahaha. Plus, thanks a lot la, because as far as I found you and started contacting you, you never stop giving useful advised to be a great muslimah! I've watched Wardina Safiyyah video saying that "kalau kita ingin berubah jadi baik, orang-orang baik akan datang kepada kita." So, don't be too perasan la, okay fine. Kau memang baik and I support you in anyway and a very BIG thanks to you because helping me to change to a better!

Muhammad Mustaqim Kamarauzaman
(this is the only pic that aku rase muka kau tak poyo sangat)

Okay, I had revealed my Mr. Stalker, so dah tak best la kan if I've wanted to use that nickname again.. But never mind laa.. As long as there is no new Mr. Stalker, I'll be using it. If there is one in the future, kau dah trurun pangkat la ye Mr. Stalker!!!

another day, another story, another me,

by a teenage gurl who is soo happy dapat kantoi kan her Mr. Stalker's secrets,

wawa cyrus

muahmuah xoxo

HAPPY RAYA EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY RAYA TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE IT!!!!!!!!! Mine? It sucks because I and the rest of the form 5 in Malaysia will be having our Trial soon.. So, like they said, "Raya ni bukan kita punya!". And to add all the tense and pressure that we had for the upcoming Trial, I just got a Raya message from Teha and it says
" Mintak maaf dari SCAPULA sampai FIBULA atas segala PARALLAX ERROR and ZERO ERROR and segala INVOLUNTARY ACTION yg dilakukan tnpa CONSCIOUS CONTROL. Dharapkan msj ini dpt jdi CATALYST utk kita upgrade MOMENTUM n PROBABILITY kita supaya mlakukan REFORMATION n TRANSFORMATION......." kau memang sengaja kan teha?? =.=" Terus takde feel nak Raya and teringat kat ma whole packed of abandoned books!

Plus, I dont have new heels for this year and it sucks because I never had Raya without new heels! So double SUCKS! But, it is okay, because this Raya is not just any Raya, to me tho.. As I can feel that ma sister and ma brother are growing up really well, as I can felt a lot of different in them and Im enjoying it! To ma sister, tho that I annoyed you a lot, I also love ya! Sorry if I did anything that hurt you, Raya kan? Chill la!

Ma kurung was sponsored by Mak Teh! She went to Mecca recently and bought few kain for the gurls in the family. So our family got the brown one!



ayah-mummy-abangah
kak long-me
(Dont I looked like wearing a tudung labuh?? Kak Nab gonna be soo proud of me! touched)LOL


Masahuling's

The night before Raya I went to Azwan's! I spend ma whole night there playing firecracker and a lot more! And I did gossiping with ma tweens, Shasha! Aww.. Miss her soo much! I think, this night was a total different as our night before Raya will always be having iftar outside and did our last minute shopping or just enjoying watching Raya movie together in living room.. But not this year! Once again, ma first time playing firecracker and they ROCK!

shasha-me---> =.=' noob



woot woot


We even had Abg Kam there playing photo shoots. Abg Kam were desperately wanted us and the light combined in a pic.. Haha.. I don't have the pics as they were all in Abg Kam's dslr. I did few using mine, but look at the result, failed! Those in Abg Kam's dslr was perfect!


Then, Mak Su brought out Kak Aina's new pudding recipe! Yum!

My Raya start with peluk-peluk cium-cium sessions with ma family, and with Kaklong had been started working this year, she gave me and the rest duet Raya too! haha.. habesla, your budget lari! Then, we went to kubur to recite Yasiin to Atuk, Nenek and for the first time this Raya, to Pak Long as well as he just left our family on April this year.. T^T I'm gonna miss you Pak Long as you're the best uncle I ever had and you're just like ma grandfather too.. Al-Fatihah

Then went to Mak Long's and Mak Lang's. Duet2 raya!!!!!!!!!!!

This year Raya, I have soo many working and married cousins means more duet Raya la people! Yay!!!!!!!!!


We even celebrated Mak Su's birthday with Baskin-Robbins Celebration Cake!!!!!!! Yumm!


And I ended up ma Raya in Mak Cik's house!

Mr. Stalker once said, even if we have any problems that disturbed our feel to be-Raya sakan, we must also celebrate it as it is Sunnah! So, despite on whatever things that had interfere ma peace and fabulous-me zone to celebrate Raya as I always did, I don't have to care about it! In conclusion, ENJOY RAYAAA PEOPLE!!!!!!!

another day, another story, another me,

by a teenage gurl who haven't prepared anything for her Trial yet,

wawa cyrus

muahmuah xoxo

SPECIALLY MADE FOR MA NEW STALKER!

Okay, you know who you are....
Eceh, I'm so happy la dah dapat jumpa a friend of mine..
Okay, you la! Yes you! You kan stalker kan?! Okay la, let me tell the others about you..
We became friends as we were in the same agama school in 2005 and were in the same class... We always had fights between each other, at one moment, I can still remember how we had a big fight till I cried! lol! Until now, he felt so guilty and kept repeating 'sorry' words countless time.. =.= I'm okay la dude, chill okay?????

So, I'm so happy la! At last we meet again and you still remember me and noticed me! I'm really happy and frankly typing, I did searching for you, padanla tak jumpa, you went to boarding school rupanya.. And well, in this great Ramadhan month, Allah S.W.T. had united us by just clicking! I'm glad that Mark Zuckerberg had invented Facebook, or else, we will never ever had the chance to see each other again! So Mark Zuckerberg, you ROCK!
Thanks to Allah S.W.T. too, seriously la bro.. I'm soo happy to actually reconnected with you again!

So you the stalker! Mesti happy kan, because I had make a special post just for you! Okay, go on tersengih sengeh happy sorang-sorang depan PC, and then pergi bangga diri in front of your friends that you actually got a special post made just for you! lol!

Okay ma bro! Don't ever forget me and stop contacting me! I kinda miss ya actually! Missing to have fights with ya okay, jangan fikir lain pulak!

another day, another story, another me,

by a teenage gurl who had send a message to a wrong person thanks to you Mr. stalker,

wawa cyrus

muahmuah xoxo

too much!

Regarding to ma title.. Yeah, to much things happened till I didn't get the chance to stop it or to examine it whether it was great or bad things.. But just wanna mentioned here, something really unEXPECTED thing just happened which when I said that unEXPECTED thing mean waaaay UNEXPECTED thing happened... And I personally said "I don't like it!!!!!". Its not that I hate it, okay fine.. I admit, I did get jealous.. Too much jealous that I got to hate it, no wait, I cant hate it, I just don't like it..

Grrrr... I hope that she knew that he will love me better and always, that's just it! I don't know, It just that I knew him better and longer, and no one could replace me in his heart!!!!!! NOBODY!

Fine fine fine.... I support you in anyway, but promise me that you will love me better than her! You will always call me and say good things about me and say that I'm the most pretty gurl evvuh in the world than her! And yeah, I blessed you.. No worries.. But remember, you LOVE me more than her! And that just it!

And don't be so upset with this post, I love you and always! Just make up with me by buy-ing me PRESENT! And yeah, asked her to buy me present too! And I'm okay with it!

Btw, this year SPKG batch K94 had rock the world on! It was super cool and GREAT and I love it so much! Abang Sam, Abang Malik, Kak Dayang, Kak Molly and Abang Azmin-you guys ROCK! 5 COOL LOVE YA! And FYI, I'm not sure his name, but the abang who gave comments to ma drama team last year came to this year SPKG and he did remember me! weeee... hehehehehehehe... He asked about ma braces and I was shocked! Fusyo, you remember me yeah abang? And I was like, heheh, you did remember me!!!! And too bad that this year SPKG got no Ferrari but I did see a lot of Apple products that they used! Cool!

another day, another story, another me,

by a teenage gurl who still shocked but suka hati hang la tak kisah,

wawa cyrus

muahmuah xoxo

craziness define me!

I think the whole idea in leaving me alone in the house is turning out well.. I'm certainly having a really great time spending ma pleasure time in the house alone! Yes, I do have fun time alone! Yeah! Watching TV, on-lining, listening to the radio out loud and I can eat whatever I want and do whatever I want whenever I want without to care about other people! Tho that I'm scared but I'm getting used at it! Its fun! To be left alone and you just can do whatever you want...

Well, Mummy will call me every two to three hours just to check whether I'm okay, that's great because I really need someone to talk to if I felt scared or feeling something is just not right like maybe I feel that I will meet a ghost or anything related to ghost.. You know, sometimes when you were alone, you feel something like that, you feel scared and imagine those kind of thing.. You know what I meant.. Okay go and laugh because this gurl right here is a total coward when it comes to ghost. But I think I can handle it now, maybe, I am seventeen, big gurl huh? LOL

And this afternoon, mummy called me, asking me to eat the fruits or if I could finish it because she wanna buy new ones in the market this Sunday so we could have another fresh fruits at home... Then I went to the kitchen and I saw the fruits were like A LOT man... I could not finish it all! So, I got this one tiny little crazy IDEA in ma mind.... dot dot dot

How about I do a juice! ngeh ngeh....

You betcha what I put in the juice........................

But first, tadaaaa! Here is ma juice!

looking yum huh?? huh?? (with a weird confident kinda face)
-read it with black American accent-

I know you want me to make it for ya!

And try guess what I put in it!

Okay, fineeeeee. I just put 3 oranges, a banana and a green apple!

Well, sounds eww-ing but I think it taste sweet, sour because of the green apple I guess and sticky maybe it was the banana! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA..
Okay, I am so bored then, and I've got nothing to do so don't blame me to be such a disgusting gurl.. ngeh ngeh
Moreover, there were so many of them, and I don't wanna ate all of it, why don't I just blend it.. At least I managed to reduced them.. Okay, I'll be dead if ma mom read this...

See, tho that I used some of it to make ma juice, but still, ade banyaaak lagi kot.. How to finish them all up! I've got reason if ma mom get mad at me.. XD

Okay thanks la ye Pak Cik Blender, tho I don't know how to use you and messed with ya when making me a delicious juice, I'm sorry... hehe

So lesson of the day is, Wawa can make juice! A really nice juice okay.. Hahaha.. Ma maid gonna be so proud at me, and plus, I am now not a lazy ass and more diligent to pick up the laundry and I am good at cleaning the table after dinner!

p/s: If you guyz out there got any crazy idea and doesn't have anyone to do it with ya, ask me! I'll do it for sure! Because crazy define me!

another day, another story, another me,

by a teenage gurl who had messed up her mom's kitchen,

wawa cyrus

muahmuah xoxo

FUN TIME WITH THE BITCHES!

Lessons of the day: I am really a scardy cat if being left alone at home and I hate when it was raining outside and I'm alone in a home, plus who the hell who rang the bell when I was left alone in the house.
The lesson is I HATE being left alone in the house. It happened was because ma maid went back to Indonesia to settle down some of her family problems and now I'm alone in a big scary house of mine. No fair at all! I hate it and please Kak Tuy, come back here now! I'm scared and I hate to do the chores! Yes, I got a pair of lazy ass, and I'm not the kind of gurl who do the chores at home and I really hate it! And lucky me, today was raining heavily and I had to pick the laundry twice today! And I repeat TWICE today! I suck at it and I'm soo lazy!

And please, I hope that ma future husband would understand ma weaknesses and accept me just the way I am! praying~

And yesterday was a really fun day for me because I've got to meet up ma two beloved bitches, okay stop writing those bad words, opah gonna kill me. Hehe.. Yes, yesterday in the morning I went to hospital to accompanied ma mom then she sent me to Esh's house where we did our crazy stuff together.. I never thought how I really miss you opah! We laugh like crazy and when you kept repeating OMG countless time which make me so annoyed and you kept interrupt Esh when she in the middle of saying something, oh boy how we had fun moment together! And I learned new words from Esh too..

STFU!
Right Esh? -LMAO-

How cute! Esh showed us her Teru Teru Bozu. It is supposed to have magical powers to bring good weather and to stop or prevent a rainy day then brings the sun shine! I should do it this morning to ease ma feelings towards the rain ghost I kept thinking when I was alone in the house. LOL It is famous in anime's comic or anything that relate to anime.. Sadly opah didnt know about it. Then Esh google it for her.


There you go, Teru Teru Bozu! Now you know it opah..


As me and Esh busying ourselves watching videos for the Hari Guru then Esh told me everything from the performance to the competition that were held in Convent, Opah tak habis-habis forced us to take picto as she was playing with the camera.. Then, I said "Malaslah nak pakai tudung..." Then everyone were like, never mind, "Kita ada cara.."


Esh just grab a shawl in her cupboard and tadaa...


And coincidentally I was wearing a hoods and I was like "Macam ni je lah.." It was hideous and we were laughing like hell! Bahaha.. I know!


And yeah, our stupid picto. what a cam whore we people.. Yeah, bitches out there who are jealous, you betcha shut your mouth up and don't say any meany words to us because we don't care! We bitches were having fun time together!






There were so many pics, tak kan la I nak upload everything kan?
Then, Opah had to leave early, so just me and Esh were having fun together taking pictos..


Out of sudden, Opah text us with the same message!


Zahirah: U two bitches are the best thing ever! to eshy- b make sure to upload nice2 pics only ah~to wawa- better nt call me a bitch again haha btw wawa, u look like one glamor pengemis i met! just kiddin.. take care dear granddaughters! <3


Then both of us replied the same thing to her in the same time!
To Zahirah: wawa chan cakap "Gedik btol!" Esh chan ckap "hahahahahaha!" i miss you and I love you!

LOL, then we continue our randomness pose!

eww.. I look like a molester and I really wanna molest Esh kinda face!

We end our hectic time taking picto with purdah pose thingy...

Having crazy nonsense wasted time like this make me thinking of ma two bitches in Kuantan, who else if not ma roommates, Hanna and Syikin! We were like the craziest among the form five.. I remembered this one night after we had our prep, I asked them to accompanied me to KOOP to buy drinks, that night was raining heavily and they agreed and how doubtless Syikin just ran into the rain without to care what people said and the lightning was flashing many times too.. What a night we had!

me-Hanna-Syikin

Plus, Syikin and me love to take picto and we, as me, Hanna and Syikin like to shout to each other! Really, the block were so noisy and thanks to us! aww.. I miss you gurls la!

another day, another story, another me,

by a teenage gurl who gonna say something "we were always meant to say goodbye",

wawa cyrus

muahmuah xoxo